This underlying sense of guilt is an all pervasive thing. It contributes to the negative culture in Malaysian chess. And the victims are our players.
That is why we cannot even agree on what the problem is. Over time the culture has become one that agrees in the open and sabotage at the back. We all say the same thing. We love chess. We are doing this for the love of chess. But our actions belie what we really think.
MCF nods their head and say yes. In their minds they are thinking. We need to control this guy. If he succeeds then we look bad. Guilt. No results. No confidence.
The parents will agree with MCF when it favours their kids and have tea tarik sessions on how to overthrow MCF when their kids are overlooked.
In this scenario there can be no solution. Solution can only come when each party own up to their part in the problem. And each party is properly recognised and compensated for their contribution.
Then we are all on the same page. Then the wheel touches the tarmac. And we have traction to move in the right direction.
But first we have to agree. Do we have a problem? And what that problem is. And then we have to deal with it.
This is the same methodology for developing strong chess players. Do think on this.